Forgetting the unforgettable

I've been trying desperately to forget the things I don't want to...
I've been trying hard... giving it my all...
but I'm trying to forget the things I don't want to forget...
how can I do it then? The question is...Can it be done?

As I walked closer to the doors, I felt my heart beating fast
It hurts... every step does... I hate the feeling... I love it...
I'm trying to forget the things I don't want to...
but instead I find myself moving towards it...

I don't wanna remember... I want to forget...
I don't wanna reminisce... I want to forget...
I don't wanna... I want to... I... I...
I wanna forget that I want to forget.