Thoughts...

I don't know what to do... I think I might be single after I graduate.. I mean look at me, who would ever want to go out with me? I'm fat, not very intelligent.. umm.. let me just say I'm clueless in some things, I can get pretty annoying, am disobedient at times, quite a rebel and am very moody. Although I am said to be smart, pretty even if I'm "chubby", kind, passionate, a good friend, patient and stuff, those negative things about me are are enough to make those of the opposite gender take me off their lists. *sighs* oh well... I guess that's life.

Also, I've been trying to maintain a diet but found that it is quite hard to do so. Reason? I'm depressed. I wanna pig-out. I wanna get sick. I wanna... I wanna... I don't even know what I want!

Reasons for why I am depressed: no lovelife, am fat, so many assignments, need to buy things to replace things that had been broken, no lovelife, low grades, have to mantain diet, need to do lots of stuff like study, study, study! And did I forget to mention I have absolutely NO lovelife?! *sighs* yes.. that one makes me depressed enough... I'm gonna be single. I'm gonna be single! I'm gonna be SINGLE!!! I DO NOT WANT TO BE SINGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna have a profession/job, a married life and some children!! Waaahhhh!!!! Now, I think I sound too hysterical... I think this was because of my reading too much of those Cathy comic books. hehe... *sighs*