What is and is not

Why is it always like that? I'd chose the right people who are wrong for me... not wrong coz of their personality or whatever- I DID say they are the "right" people- but wrong because well... I don't think I'd ever be more than just their friend... sighs... oh well.. I just that's life.

I think I would just need to lose weight and take good care of myself. Maybe after that... hopefully *smiles a little*

Life... sighs.. ^_^;

REVOLUTION

What would happen
If I were to suddenly fall
deep... hard... straight down
against my will, I feel
I want to relax but can't
my insides turning upside-down
covering, hiding... I know
something's coming
something will happen
good but not to me
not now... never... impossible...
I feel it coming nearer
almost like Bishof's drawing
I feel it... I feel the impending doom
push a button... almost
Sensing it but no one knows
Please don't do it, please
talking, shouting inside
I can't be heard
My feet on the edge
deciding what to do
Rain starts to fall
clouding my sight
On the edge, I start to move
little steps, slowly moving
my head in turmoil
What would happen if...