I don't lose... but I can't win.

I made a friend of mine something sort-of like a letter. It's in a notebook. I really hope she likes it. hehe =)

Ermm... I'm getting pretty depressed again. I'm being pathetic. Pfft. How come I always have to put myself down? I need something to boost up my confidence. I really don't know how but I really wish... I'd, one day, be able to overcome this tiny bit of insanity within me. It really makes me want to act crazy and pull all the hair from my head. Boublahts.

I'm not that bad a person. In fact, though I'm a little bit of what one would call a "pasaway", I'm pretty kind and obedient. What's the problem then? Yes, I'm moody but that is what makes me "me". I don't like being someone who I'm not, someone who acts too wild nor too good. I'm an imperfect person and I think that is what makes me who I am. In short, that is what makes me perfectly "Mashee".

I wish someone would one day try to know more about me. I'm not that dislikable. In fact, I'm pretty likable... because I too like a lot of people. But... well... I meant try to know me in another way, if anyone would get what I'm trying to say. = =)

Why is that everytime I play a game... I don't lose... but I can't win.